i remember

(again)

coming home from kindergarden

(kindergarden for christ all sakes)

mom-we are going in to dr. lamana's  office and contest

"show and tell"

it was the boy's turn- yet miss cohen let a girl "show and tell"

because she was unprepared yesterday.

see

i have been (maybe)

((i stress "maybe")

so caught up in "unfairness"

life can be unfair-pablo

"get over it"

PS: 45 years so odd later-and still-i try...

o.k.

i have said my peace

(intended)

i have responded (in kind)

to most of your facebook notifications

(i have not been to my own facebook page in months)

what does it look like?

well

it looks like me

(i retain my sense of humour)

always and 4-ever

your kindred spirit

:)

hasta manana

and

buneos nachos

PS: no really

heavy on the cheese

say "provolone"

to the cameras eye...

(pabloshouse)

Bowie getting tired of being asked if he is bisexual.

David Bowie - My Death 1995 (unreleased version)

the system of dr, tarr & professor feather

(edgar allan poe)

do what you need to make you feel better

do what you need...


to make you feel.

the best lack all conviction

and the worst

are filled with a passion and an intensity

now

(go figure)

where i am

{Yeats}

PS: book-strong

Thanx Dar-Ma

#3

BIG :)

PS: focus off (it is and has never been aboot' me)

How's the "kids"?

i hope the kids are alright

(peter townsend)

google at your own delight...

love you, my brethren

(pabloshouse)

an abbreviated poem

still coming

still a work in progress

(aren't we all)

ever becoming...

your loving brother, son, friend

or

just plain paul

love you

all...

okie-dokey

time to speak

(vent-rant and rave)

i am a stubborn stephan

(ever met my dad or my oldest brother?)

((i am and remain forever in their debt))

a couple of years ago i awoke with a dead hand.

"the goddamn broken door in the work place caused this"

i want into the workers compensation program.

i got in (with a little help from my friend)

"park bench syndrome" said dr. nuero

"no" a broken door which re-injured a previously broken hand

i want to see an orthopedic.

"no" said workers compensation.

m.r.i. (yadda yadda yadda)

i got a letter thru the U.S. mail (sorry ron paul)

results: negative

what gives?

2 other possibilities:

exposure to a neuro-toxin or

an auto-immune disease.

"let's try again"

do you know the definition of insanity?

it is doing the same thing over and over(joe walsh)

and

(sing along now)

expecting different results.

i got a call. dr. neuros girl friday

(they know how to work these things-he said)

((did you know that any test prescribed under worker's compensation law under $900

cannot be contested?))

how much is this going to cost to retest?

$899

((go figure))

what are you looking for?

(duh)

what caused your hand to die!

you are looking for an auto-immune disease

of course- i am a neurologist

but- work could not have caused that-certainly not at my work

i cannot and will not allow a government program diagnose me when we both know they
should not foot the bill.

((live your beliefs or no one will believe you))

{the gospel according to...}

{{they called my dad "the mayor" a co-worker said-you should run for office}}

made me laugh

i can't

too many skeletons-plus

i am forced to tell the truth by some compelling entity that most office seekers seem not to have

((you can't handle the truth))

you know-you want me on that wall

i digress

(always and forever)

if i allow further testing it will be done at my own expense and my insurance

(yes- i pay for health insurance and i did not need a mandate to "carry my weight")

what are we looking for?

m.s.

lupus

a.l.s.

etc etc

what is the therapy?

injectable steroids for the rest of your life

no thanks

do you want piece of mind

i am at peace...

am i certain of any thing?

death and taxes (B. Frank)

and

my death waits (jacques brel)

PS: i am going to out-live you all

(well- maybe 'cept elizabeth-seen the statistics?)

PSS: Lies- Damn Lies and Statistics(sam clemens)

godspeed to all

and

"doant worry- be happy" (bobby mcferrin)

:)